Song: Hiroki Kikuta - Dark Star [Seiken Densetsu OSV]

A thouhgt that just crossed my mind from a conversation Roo and I had earlier. She was saying that I should bleach my hair again and I will agree with her on that. I admit that I did like the bleached look. Right now, the lady that cuts my hair is out for a month, tending to her new born baby, so I won't go anywhere else to get my hair cut. So, I was wondering, if I don't cut my hair for a while, minus the usual cleaning and what not, how stupid will it look being long and bleached. And... will I actually go through with it? Let's find out!

Panic Room
I had me another one of those uncomfortable nights. Basically, again, I woke up in the middle of the night with what I believe is my heart pumping a mile a minute. It's a very uncomfortable feeling and puts me in a world of anxiety and fear. I'll start to toss and turn as the uncomfortable feeling pulses in my chest. I'll sit up in bed and just sit there, thoughts running wild as I grow very scared of my problem. At first, I never though much of the problem when I was diagnosed with it. I can't remember the name, cause I was too stupid to remember. But, I didn't think of it to be serious either, nor did the doctor say it was. Now with the problem at the state that it is at, I really do become afraid. Afraid of what might happen. Thus, the anxiety. And... I will admit, I am afraid of death. I never thought much of it nor had much emotion towards it. That is, until now. I mean, I'm still young and it's too early for me. And there are the people around me that I love and care for. Anyway... I didn't sleep well last night because of it. I don't remember what time it was when I finally fell back asleep... I know it couldn't have been over an hour, but... with the mind was working I suppose it could have. Though I might have not lost a lot of sleep, my body felt like it went through hell and back. I didn't want to get out of bed nor move much at all. I felt like I went through a rigorous work-out and that my body needed to rest more. My chest was sore, but not as bad as the last time it happened. It wasn't fun at my job this morning. I was so worn out that I couldn't keep focused. By the time afternoon rolled around, I was feeling a little better but my body still needed rest. Then my bosses dropped another bombshell on me with the new graphic design gig I'm in. My body went back to hell. I finally had to tell them that I can't deal with their last minute time frames for jobs anymore and that I was truly hating the position that I am in now. They told me that they are working on trying to get more organized about the deadlines but the latest one they just found out on Friday. ... So, why didn't they tell me over the weekend when I was working with them, wasting my life away? Or this morning? Either way, the words from my boss' mouth I can never take with an ounce of truth. Anyhow, my pain came back because of them. My body weakened again. Pick up Roo and went home. She prepared dinner and I just sat in my bed and buried my head in a pillow. ... It felt good. I mean, just resting and doing nothing. Had a good dinner trying new things with salads. Finally found a dressing that I like which I'm sure has pleased Roo since I'm so horribly picky. Yeah, I'm a real pain in the ass, folks. But, yeah, I enjoyed dinner and I felt better rested. That's about it for today. I think I've been depressive enough, so I'll move on to better things. Sorry to be a downer, folks. =

Watching the special movie, "deep dive", from Kingdom Hearts -Final Mix- and listening to my assorted Kingdom Hearts soundtrack selections, I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY am curious about the sequel. Is it me but does the older Sora (dressed in all black) look a lot like Cloud of Final Fantasy VII? ^^; Speaking of Final Fantasy, every time I hear the ending theme to Final Fantasy X, it makes me so sad. ::grabs a tissue:: o.o ... WHAT??? It is! =p Right, back to Kingdom Hearts. One thing I'm pumped up for in the sequel is this:

I'll buy it just to see Mickey Mouse dressed in black and kick some ass. o.@

Hey, remember back a few days ago when I was ranting about the pain in the ass customers calling? Well, one of them sent in their unit with a lovely letter to match his personality and kindness of when me and my boss spoke over the phone. In fact, I swiped a copy of it from my job for your viewing pleasure! Enjoy! >D

"To Whom It May Concern:

[edit - He explains the situation with his PowerLung.]

This morning, I carefully explained all of this over the phone, and I was ignored. I was told repeatedly that I was an old woman using the device for the first time today and that I had made the mistake of setting the inhale mechanism at a point beyond my capabilities. Nothing I said made any difference.

I wasted half an hour on the phone today. Now I am wasting more valuable time writing this letter. Tomorrow, I must take time off from work to send the thing back to you, then lose several days of training with it, sacrificing ground that I have worked very hard to gain. This morning on the phone, I explained why this was an intolerable situation, but you ignored this part of my conversation as well.

When you receive this, call me immediately [edit] and tell me what you intend to do to make things right. Sending me a new PowerLung will not make up for what I have suffered. I suggest that you send me two - one to replace the defective product I purchased, and one (free of charge) to have as a back-up so that that the next time there is a break down I can send the defective one back for repair without having to lose a week of training and without having to endure patronizing refusal to listen."

People are funny, huh? ^_^ Let's see... he wasted half an hour on the phone because HE wouldn't listen... Mmm... I don't know where he got the old woman part. Guess he was hoping someone with sympathy would get the letter. So, to service his unit, we replaced a spring and the mouthpiece and sent it back, saying it was a new unit. >D Don't treat us right and we won't treat you right. The customer is NEVER right unless ... well, they are truly right. ^^; Heh... again, people are funny. ^_^ And IF you would like to send your regards to Mr. Dickhead, then send your loving letters to:

Joel Cornwell
1336 W. Albion Ave., #2E
Chicago, IL 60626

Well, I think that'll wrap up this journal entry... I had other things on me mind, I think... but, bleh, one thought is still plaguing it. And to end this entry, let's socialize!

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::raises Roo's hand:: I feel like this is becoming the Triple H show... =p Hey, you think that porn pic was sick!??? You should see the sexy one of Paper x Rock! o.O Poor Scissors... I bet it's jealous. @.@ And, hey, look! You got your shiny belt! See, folks! Now there is a reason that you have to be number one! You gotta take this away from her! =p

I knew you'd love the porn, Hisako-chan. >D But, yeah, seriously. I read your blog. Don't worry about the porn. I just joke around about it. The only time that porn will appear on this journal is when I talk about my sad and pathetic dreams, which I always post a warning about. It's great to hear that you're now a MFer!!! >D I mean, seriously folks! Become an MFer or, well, you know. ... You might suffer a horrible Twist of Fate. Cute story about recording wrestling. >D And I will draw Matt as soon as I get the confidence to draw again.

Yeah!!! Doesn't it kick arse, Sammy! I'll be sure to draw more just for you! =p

2 mints on my pillow.